Welcome to the second week of Mental Health Monday!
Hello everyone and welcome to Mental Health Monday! This is a weekly installment that will hopefully catch on with other websites and bloggers, whether or not that happens is another story. You can read more over at Mental Health Mondays.
Triggers: Self Harm
This has been a really awful week for me, I’ve been under and immense amount of pressure and stress and I don’t really have any outlets for it currently, So I end up not expressing anything until I explode and do something stupid, That was yesterday. Even with my issues I’ve generally not taken part in self-harm, or at least not often, I can count the number of times that I’ve self-harmed on one hand but I ended up there in the end. When I have allowed myself to self-harm it’s never been cutting or scratching or tearing, I sat in the shower for I don’t know how long punching myself in the leg until my leg and arm were so numb I couldn’t move them anymore. And of course that doesn’t help anything, it’s the day after and I can still barely move my leg, My arm is killing me and now I feel guilty because I allowed myself to do that. Looking back in hindsight of course it makes zero sense that beating the crap out of yourself is going to not only injure you but put you in a negative mood, But when you’re breaking down and the only thoughts in your head are about how screwed you are and how much you hate yourself sometimes your body moves seemingly of its own accord, Like that’s what it was meant to do and your brain was just holding it back with logic and self worth. Thanks for reading.